Alone

I miss Emily. She would know what to do. She would know what I needed to hear. She would tell me what I needed to know. She would understand my feelings without me having to explain them. I miss her being able to read my mind and the fact that she never said anything to me when I was upset. We clicked and bonded together. I don't understand why everything has to be so complicated. I don't understand why for once in my life I can't be satisfied. Like, is it so hard to just appreciate what you have? Obviously for me it is. I'm surrounded by a group of people who love me but all I can do is push them away. I don't want anyone near me. I miss everything that I know I'll never get back.